29/08/2012 In the Darkest moment.

Felt really dark and depressed today. Helplessness seemed to be growing inside me, consuming me. I feel far away from God. And I know it's my fault for not drawing near to Him. I just felt so irritated and frustrated with what's happening in my life. The struggles, the fear, the loneliness im experiencing. Nobody seemed to care. And no... Nothing in this world makes it feel better. The situation is far worst than perceived. All I feel is icy cold. I feel so distant from everyone in church. There seemed to be nowhere I belonged to. Nobody to hear my struggles & pain. I tried. But you didn't do anything. Forget it.