I have been spending time out of home too much lately. There were 2 dinner outings with the NUS ministry people. Well, actually I've been trying hard to mix around with them because I don't seem to have a normal cell group and it turned out pretty weird because they are one big group of people with common cell, and all been to some overseas together. Sometimes, I do feel out of place, like I have no idea what to talk to them about. In the end, I'm some weird, quiet girl. Forget it. Don't really like forcing myself. Furthermore, they all stay in the west/east. I heart North-landers. I do doubt myself if I'm like really shy or what in a big group... or maybe it's just me.
1. Above is some Social Work tutorial activity. It's pretty fun, and I do enjoy it. It's a collage I did which describe myself. Though I do find it tough, contradicting and all, but I still want to try my best to do well in it.
Awkward Simpsons/ Awkward Me.
Recent updates will be that I actually went for the interview for expedition to India. Well, I don't know what are my chances. I somehow feel that I will be disappointed. Knowing that I did not get a place is like being rejected. Rejection means unwanted, I will most probably think I am unworthy and lack the quality. Somehow, my confidence is affected. After some consideration, I do not really want to commit myself this long and I do have other church commitments.
When I always want to join a cca, something seemed to crop up and foil my plan. Life in NUS is really mundane and scarily lonely. Most of the times, I feel cropped up in my own life though I do want to try to step out and meet new people, do new stuff. It all seems so scary and I don't feel supported. I feel that nobody around me gives me positive feedbacks of myself. I have no idea how to go about doing all these... To encourage myself, I am joining KickBoxing with Mayvin! Yay! Something to rejoice! I might consider joining dance ministry or something else. I don't know.
Somehow, social work has been for 2 weeks. Still getting to know my social work friends. I hope we can bond well, afterall, it's only these 18 of us but time seemed short. I'll just try my best?
1. Above is some Social Work tutorial activity. It's pretty fun, and I do enjoy it. It's a collage I did which describe myself. Though I do find it tough, contradicting and all, but I still want to try my best to do well in it.
2. Seafood Pasta with @SINREN <3 Took plenty of polaroids at her house too.
3. Esplanade View after church.
4. Baptism for QiuRu.
5. Sending Di Xin off.
6. Japanese Food from The Deck.
7. Oreo cheese cake to cheer up myself on a Blue Blue Monday/Tuesday
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