Life has been good.... (It terrifies me to write down such a statement because good things doesn't last forever, just like bad times... or bad things happen to happy people.) I've learnt to take life a pinch of salt.
Reflecting back, work has been fairly stable and I've worked my way through to better times ahead, gaining the trust of others, working on my attitudes and etc... . You work on things that you can change and allow others to witness the change within yourself.
Love... is still a struggle. A mystery. A gift I can never uncover. A happiness I can never experience. I've always thought how lucky are the ones that are deeply in love. I envy & I dream of it every single day. They say... some things can never be forced and I guess love is one of them. I can work hard for my job, I can work hard for my dreams but I just can't simply put down any actions to seek love. I can join as many dating apps, meeting many people but if the stars doesn't align, no sparks could happen. Oh God, I'm so frustrated & impatient... my eggs are screaming at me telling me that they are expiring soon. Yet, I cannot grab any random guys on the street and tell them to marry me. :'( #confessionsofasinglefrustratedwoman I know it's lame but many days, I just burst out crying, wondering why I'm single all these while. Well-meaning friends have told me that I would get someone that loves me for who I am... but how are they gonna know that when I don't have a single guy friend in my life. #screwit #gonnagoswipegirlsrightnow #tearingwhileitypethis
