I'm finally back from Timor Leste! It was a new and different experience. It's really something enriching and truly amazing. Never thought I would fall in love with Timor... even though it's not advanced or whatsoever, something in me is just attracted to the place. Right now, I'm having a hungover. I don't know why... I came back to Singapore, so eager to share my experience with my family, but instead I felt more obliged that I am truly undeserving, it seemed like all the time, I am trying so hard. Came back just to feel a sense of negative spirit in the family. My parents started quarrelling before I saw them, and it seemed they are so uninterested and distracted. I don't know what's happening, it's like either it's me who is really exhausted from all the travelling or the devil's attack. I was so ready to bring back the love I felt, then my mother started badmouthing people, and my dad disapproving me of going East Timor despite I've already reached home. Upon home, discovered my spectacles were left back there... & my sister kept on saying discouraging words. I don't know... I just want to spend some time alone. Really. I'm tired & exhausted, and it felt like I cannot go on any more.
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
21/06/2012 Tired, Exhausted.
I'm finally back from Timor Leste! It was a new and different experience. It's really something enriching and truly amazing. Never thought I would fall in love with Timor... even though it's not advanced or whatsoever, something in me is just attracted to the place. Right now, I'm having a hungover. I don't know why... I came back to Singapore, so eager to share my experience with my family, but instead I felt more obliged that I am truly undeserving, it seemed like all the time, I am trying so hard. Came back just to feel a sense of negative spirit in the family. My parents started quarrelling before I saw them, and it seemed they are so uninterested and distracted. I don't know what's happening, it's like either it's me who is really exhausted from all the travelling or the devil's attack. I was so ready to bring back the love I felt, then my mother started badmouthing people, and my dad disapproving me of going East Timor despite I've already reached home. Upon home, discovered my spectacles were left back there... & my sister kept on saying discouraging words. I don't know... I just want to spend some time alone. Really. I'm tired & exhausted, and it felt like I cannot go on any more.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
14/06/2012 Going Timor.
I'm honestly tired and weary from all the camps. Don't even have time to prepare and all. But I really do hope God will prepare my heart for the trip! I don't know how I should prepare, but I really hope for a heart of humility, and that He will bless me to see miracles in life and to pray constantly for others.
Friday, June 8, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
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