29/05/2012 Heaven Is A Place On Earth With You.

Family Day out with my grandmother! We took plenty of pictures but I'm really lazy to upload them! Will next time I guess? Anyway, it's a great day out, taking the flyers but without my sister! :( even though she is at home... I'm sort of starting to miss her because she's like so busy studying? And every time when I reached home she is already sleeping. Usually she will talk to me and etc... But 😔!

Next next! My holiday trips are all coming up! Am really nervous that I will have so many things to do and pack! :( I mean I am looking forward but also missing my mundane life at the same time! :-( I will definitely miss my family a lot! And church! :-(

27/05/2012 楊丞琳 匿名的好友

杜松混合茉莉的風
回憶裡被愛 那股激動天色好紅 溫柔好濃在胸口浮現你的臉容

一起活在這城市迷宮提起你名字 心還跳動 卻沒重逢只有想碰卻又不敢碰的那種悸動也許我們當時年紀真的太小

從那懵懵懂懂 走進各自天空該怎麼說讓彼此選擇 但思念還轉動不能握的手 從此匿名的朋友其實我的執著依然執著

與你無關淚自行吸收不能握的手 卻比親人更親厚但所有如果都沒有如果只有失去的溫柔 最溫柔

當又一次美夢落空回憶裡被愛 那股激動天色好紅 溫柔好濃在胸口浮現你的臉容

也許我們當時年紀真的太小從那懵懵懂懂 走進各自天空那是什麼 讓彼此選擇 又不僅是尊重不能握的手 從此匿名的朋友

其實我的執著依然執著與你無關淚自行吸收不能握的手 卻比親人更親厚但所有如果都沒有如果

只有失去的溫柔 最溫柔不能握的手 從此匿名的朋友其實我的執著 依然執著卻決心和你不再聯絡

不能握的手 卻比愛人更長久當所有如果都沒有如果只有失去的擁有 最永久x

26/05/2012 Are You Game On?

My Sundown is TODAY! God Bless Me with Strength okay! :)
Anyway, my aircon is down :( really upset ! First night without aircon you know! WORST WORST EVER! :'(

24/05/2012 Been Not Busy Lately

Addressing Personal Issues

Lately, God has been speaking to me. I know His good intentions for me. Some bad habits, some people I should forgive, and let go, some things to be forgotten, and wait patiently for His timing and everything, some feelings I should not breed. Indeed, God has been good so far even though holidays has become plain and boring for me because I am doing nothing. Simply nothing productive enough to even generate ant brain chemicals. Back to topic, there are personal issues which I should solve.

1) Jealousy Kills

This is real bad. I know jealousy in a little portion is good. But sometimes, I seemed to get jealous over really mundane mundane issues! Since young, I've always got this one-or-one policy which I created myself, which is that for everything people lend from me, I must get something back from them or either way. Bottom point- I CAN'T SHARE! 
Since I was really young, I just feel that nothing can be shared. I must get the best out of everything! I must make sure I'm not losing any advantage! I want others to care for me. This used to be strong! It's like selfishness, and self-centred mixing to brew a really dangerous potion when released could hurt. Not only am I hurting myself, but my relationships with others!

Application: Learning to look at others' need, and not mine.

Great website to explore& understand about Jealousy.http://deeptruths.com/treasures/jealousy.html

2) Impulsive Behaviour

I am really really impulsive. I do not heed others' advice if I feel I am right! Well, my sister is partially right! Due to our upbringing, to some extent, has affected our personality. Since young, we are always in our own world, creating our own rules! When we are right, or when we want things our way, we make sure we get it!   It's like even if it's dangerous or whatsoever wrong way, we just want to head towards it.
My Bangkok Trip! :'(
I somehow kind of regretted it. First, booked due to first reason above. Next, I did not consider lots of factors. For a spur moment, I acted based on my feelings and booked the tickets. No ending. Third, I did not tell my parents. I feel really regretful. And I did make some mistakes when booking...which I shall not go further into yeah...! Well, therefore it is indeed a mistakes and even before the trip, I feel so insecure, missing Sinren, and just want to be with my family! Really don't intend to spend any money there. I hope time flies there so I could get back as soon as possible! I MEANT IT! If it weren't for the money, I wouldn't even be interested in going any more, and it's like gripping me every moment. I just want it to end ASAP! Oh God, please let it END as quickly as possible! And be back safe & sound! I miss everything in Singapore even before I fly. A trip I'm not looking forward to which got me so paranoid and into so much unnecessary troubles. Shall stop ranting.

Application: STOP IMPULSIVE BEHAVIOUR, and listen to God's still voice.


3) Forgetting People 


Some people I can't forget, it's like even the slightest thing I do, might have the intentions of wanting something which I know is wrong, unhealthy for my emotions. I'm already trying my best, but the brain keep rewinding itself, which is HELLO, can't we just shut it off like a on and off button?

Application: Have more Godly thoughts to occupy my mind.

11/05/2012 Lovely

06/05/2012 Hello Holidays!

Have been going out for the consecutive 5 days and more to come...  Not tryna act busy or what! 

Hehe! Actually I'm pretty excited about holidays! I need to reset my life! Think about my future. Put in some serious thoughts! Actually I'm pretty interested in fashion related industry. I mean might sound tough... but I'm thinking of working in some corporations to go overseas to choose clothes and etc... just unsure if I do have the sociability to do so. You know how nasty the world out there can get judging from Devil Wear Prada, Ugly Betty and blah blah blah... where all the high fashion people judge you. I mean no doubt its a pretty superficial industry where your inner qualities doesn't matter. Anyway, it's just a though. But I think I should be more serious about it, so I could maybe take some business or marketing related module to push myself to some advantage! It would be good! :) Will continue... for now need to go out!

05/05/2012 Good Morning!

04/05/2012 China Town Trip

China Town with secondary school cliqueos! :) 

05/05/2012 You'll always be my Love.