I know each month, we would all say... Yay! March, please be good to me and etc...
Honestly, how many of us stick to our new year resolutions! I can't even remember if I have one, but well looking back, I do feel that 2011 has been an eventful year so far even though it is a period of transitions, and we all have our fair share of ups and downs. But I certainly stepped out and did things beyond what I could imagine. Thank the Lord! Now that May is here! It seemed really fast! Half a year past, and I finally realised I am being left behind by everything or rather everyone else. I feel like I am stepping backward instead of moving forward. Everything has been stable, and even though life is tough, dealing with academic pressures and the poor motivation. Worst, when you grow up, life don't give you a second chance. Screw it and that's it. But well, at least I want it to be different this holiday. Even though I might not be doing anything big or whatsoever, I want it to be meaningful. I want some soul-searching and changes. The idea of growing up ain't easy. Maybe I will take the risk, go out and meet more new people. Be brave and face challenges. I know God will bless me. Life definitely ain't easy, but mine hasn't been bad thus far. It is more of a grateful journey, for all that He has blessed me and not. Let's look on the brighter side of life. Changes and many have been made, therefore accepting His will because God has a bigger plans for me. I believe God, I am here for a reason. There are many things that I would like to do! I won't look down on myself. I know something within me, is more than what others perceive me to be. I know everyone I love and love me knows I am more than that. Sometimes, I wonder why I think so little of myself. Anyway, just realised how much I love love love my church friends. They are always so positive, encouraging, and whatever I have in mind, I can always share with them even though I don't always share much but I still appreciate the encouragement and love they have given me throughout. Every week, seeing them and going to church was one thing I truly treasure and look forward to. However upset I am, I can always tell God. Just so thankful for a great, almighty God that speaks to deeply to me and love me. God, thank you for trusting in me when I have nothing to give except this heart of mine. I give you my heart, I give you my soul, I live for you alone. I owed this life to you, and no one else. Nobody deserves a bigger, greater praise. I think I need more goals in my life! So I could start taking small steps, towards a bigger dream.
May I should plan for a summer trip to a beach place! :) It's always been what I've wanted.
No comments:
Post a Comment