Recent posts might feel extremely religious, but indeed, Jesus is the reason why I am alive. His grace is really more than what I deserve. Today, I was really touched by the God's harsh words. Whoever He loves, He disciplines. Receiving forgiveness for sin is really letting light into your life, and not allow the devil to have a foothold in your life. I finally felt a sense of relief. Nothing to hide, nothing to be ashamed of because when I confess, I am healed. Recently, I have been hearing God's presence in my life. So many little things, yet He just blesses me. I really need to start obeying His words, even though they sound seemingly ridiculous. Yes! The great immeasurable power that He has given us! Actually I was feeling really down having to run late, and getting drenched by the rain. This planning of TGIF really wears me down, and I'm really unsure if the teens were understanding what I say. Sometimes, I do feel like they are just fooling around, like really not paying attention. After all, they are teens right? How serious am I when I was like 15? Anyway, coming back... I was really crying and feeling depressed about every single stress and how overwhelmed by the work and deadlines I have to submit. Throughout the sermon, I was real tired and having a sinking feeling. I don't know why but Pastor Khong's word just kept ringing in my head. Before worship, I told God... You better speak to me. Really, I don't know what God did but every single sentence Ps Khong was like tailor made to how I felt. I just thought there are no reason to procrastinate anymore. I have been letting the opportunities and chances slip so many times already! This time, I really have to go up because I've never felt God spoke to me so personal. It cuts right through my heart. He knows my heart, my fear. When I went forward weeping, the intercessor prayed for me. Even though I wasn't listening to her at all because I was crying. I just felt the Lord telling me that He honors my heart for coming forward, and it is indeed the fear of God that drove me to leave my seat, coming all the way down, feeling so shaken. When I walked down, I could have turned back but I really don't want to run away from the problem anymore. God, He is so merciful! Praise God! :) Getting right with Him is the best decision of my life!
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