I wasted Monday! Tuesday, please be more productive! I swear I'll love you more. Should I be worried? I haven't even start on my sociology module at all! It's been so long since I wrote an essay, and even if I did, I most probably had flunked it. I need a decent life! Oh no! Almost hitting 12a.m! And all I am is right here, sitting, waiting for something to fall on me! Like right, A+ for module even if I had not studied for it? God's grace, please be upon me! Life's suddenly so meaningless all over again! I need something to be passionate about! Anyway, I'm pondering if I should go for a mission trip to East Timor with church this June holidays! I'm really excited, and looking forward to it! Don't really want my 2012 to pass like crap! I want to be able to be proud, to be able to say, I have indeed, did something God wants me to! Furthermore, I'm feeling guilty about missing the Cambodia trip I had with my cell group. Considering right now, I have a second chance to serve, and I'm not confident enough to go to FCBS. I don't know, this seemed like a good opportunity! And it comes at the right time!
Guess I've been like super quiet these few days? That's why I'm now blogging, and talking to myself on the internet. Dumb Dumb Dumb. I'm a Dumb-Dumb-Dumbo. Dumbo-Dumbo-Dumb.
I miss town! I feel so dead being stuck between my village and west. But, then again, I've already lost that awesome feeling I had when I was younger.
When you're younger, everything is so much simpler, happier. I wished for nothing more than this. Right now, it's just plain boring. I'm so worried for myself, I can't even get to share what my life passion is all about, or what I need to do, or how am I contented with my life? Hell no. I hate school life to a million, or up to infinity. For one more week, I have to endure all the crap to study, and get flying pigs for my exams. Sometimes, I really don't feel like, but no this negativism that holds me is not right. I would cost my own life. Why the education system gets so hard at the top? It's so stressful, and suffocating. Just let me die, can?
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