15/03/2014 So used to it...

How funny that blogging has become such a daily routine? Probably because I have no one to talk to except a virtual computer. How pathetic isn't it? Yesterday, I actually cried while doing work. Thoughts of myself being lonely and all just flooded in. Would anyone even be sad if I were to die? Sadly, there doesn't seemed to be a great way to die peacefully. It's normal to think of dying right? It has been really long since I last had such thoughts. I have no idea why it's resurfacing again. Every single time when I feel like dying, I try to single out my thoughts and think of the beautiful future I may have. That little hope. It's soon dying out. It's really sad how I look back into my life and realizes that nobody loves me. May be it's true about existentialism. We are born alone and die alone.