1/11/2013 Shopping

Yes! I have this ritual or rather pampering habit for myself after every submission of assignment or project! I'm so thankful how near my favorite mall, Vivo, is so near to my school! Every time I feel upset/tired/angsty/moody/happy... I would definitely shop away! It makes me feel much better. Even without talking to someone. Actually, I don't even know how to articulate my problems! I have zero problems! Too chill for anything! Maybe I don't really magnify my problems & I have quite good coping mechanism which is shopping. I love how it makes my mind wonder off and I'm so determined to get my buy worth it. Comparing prices, material, etc... I can thoroughly ignore the world and fully put my heart, soul, mind, strength into shopping. If only all these could be channelled into my academic! :( 

I don't even know why I do so badly in university. I wouldn't even say I'm average! Maybe like bottom 5% kind? Whatever it is... I know this is just a hurdle in life. I'm sure life has more in store for me. Even though sometimes I tear a little thinking about my own academics, what can I do right? I mean it's there! All I can do is probably work harder NOW. And make sure I don't disappoint myself. After all, good or bad doesn't mean who I am is being belittled... No? I am not less because of my grades. So gonna heads up and move on...