So I'm writing this during midnight! Just can't get to sleep! Unsure of what to expect and etc... but I'm definitely looking forward to working. Having in mind that I can actually get to experience real life situation instead of studying. That's one thing I love about social work, practical. It has been my dream to have first hand experience instead of studying. To make it till university is something I'm really proud of. Then again, I'm doing so badly in university that sometimes, I feel so inferior. Somehow, I made it through all the way to the dreams of every Singaporean but then, I fail myself. I guess, I just have to accept that not everybody can excel in studying. I can't deny, I still am, very disappointed with myself. And the saddest part, I cannot accept myself. Because of this... it's somehow hindering me from going further. I am constantly being filled with jealousy, hatred, anger, disappointment and so many negative emotions in me. I just feel so distance from everyone. I don't know when but I just stop trusting everyone. Maybe it's just myself. Sad, cooped up in a shell. I used to trust a friend a lot, but I really forgot when or how... well, I guess it's either time or effort is playing the devil. Some things that she did somehow made me feel really small sometimes, and I guess it's pointless to harp on it, but it snowballed, and this is the result.
Here I am waiting,
I’ll have to leave soon,
why am I holdin’ on
We knew this day would come,
we knew it all along
How did it come so fast
This is our last night,
but it’s late and
I’m tryin’ not to sleep
‘Cuz I know,
when I wake I will have to slip away
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