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Well, December is already 1 week into it's ending! There's so much to do, yet so little time! I pray that the Batam service trip would be meaningful! Nothing seemed to get into place, and I'm starting to worry a little, given the time frame and how would the teenagers manage the whole event! Well, only thing I can do now is to pray I guess! Well, time seemed to past faster during holidays! I'm impressed, & shocked at how I could actually fill my calender with events! But I do love the feeling that it's actually filled, and I'm constantly and enthusiastically keeping myself busy. It's a good way to occupy myself, so I would not even have extra time to ponder about smaller issues in my life. Well, smaller issues eventually have to be solved, because they will snowball to become bigger, larger, disturbing issues.
Another larger issue-Choosing Modules for next semester!
It's giving me a huge headache! Honestly, what should I choose? Really got no damn idea which to major in, it's killing me plenty plenty! Well, is it a matter of results & pride? Certainly yes and no. But to me, I've always tell myself that we need to embrace life but choosing what we love, so that if it gets tough and hard and all the crap comes in, you have that passion and love to tide through. Plus, it's a choice YOU'VE MADE. No qualms and fights about your mother forcing a gun down your throat to choose a major. Wow, if I can say that, I'd better be choosing something I like then!
Don't want to lie. For some reasons, I hate cell group. :( Maybe devil's planting wrong thoughts into me, but seriously!?! Don't even feel the love, and people don't even bother to come for cell group. I understand how R.H feeling now. I will try to make it for cell next time, no matter what. With this weak ties, I really don't know how to continue on... I mean what am I suppose to do? Of course, my best wishes are for everyone to come, but well we can't tie a string to them, no right? Sometimes, I just have thoughts of changing my cell group, thinking I might even benefit from another cell but, God, am I right to think this way? Or should I stay here, trying my best to fix the pieces? Don't want to rebuke, scold or whatever any more, because people only think I am trying to act righteous or what. My point is, if people don't tell, they will never understand how other people feel right! I believe every of our actions directly, or indirectly affects people in the cell group! It's really tough keeping up, but I'm yes, trying my best. If it's best for me to leave, I don't mind leaving... On a side note, I think your actions are making me sick and uncomfortable! We've been trying hard to tolerate, and tolerate but if you keep on doing that, it doesn't help at all. Well, I guess it's a good break for me to break free from everything, and try to calm down within these few days! Hopefully, it will all be better when R.H comes back.
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